Are We Forgetting Human Faces?

I see so many line-less faces online

Below please find a longer, un-cut version of a piece written about this dance piece and its mottled purpose (and a lot of ugly, embarrassing but honest thoughts), as well as a slew of rambles below.

Happy week, Word Nerd friends!

Thanks for tolerating the random dance or beauty pieces if they’re not your bag, and thanks for tolerating the health and maudlin ones if the vice is verse.

xo

Brutal Thought:

I watched this and hated how I looked.

Aside from the obvious reasons (wanting to get stronger), I immediately only see the ways my face crinkles and wrinkles and twists.

Do I see the lines of my face first, purely because I see so many lineless faces online these days?

These movements: made to tell the story of this piece. Lines of purpose and language; movement that means I’m a proud Deaf woman with a culture that’s expressive and rich.

My everyday days have far too much physical suffering the last few years. They just… do.

But my mind didn’t see the luck of still being alive when glancing back.

My eyes don’t think, “I was dancing with my daughter on this day” [who likes to stay as private as possible these days so you just get me], or how uplifting and rewarding teaching can be.

I see the things no one wants to be vapid enough to list. Insecurities and details and fears that I loathe myself for loathing. (“My Angelina Jolie hands are so witchy.” “My forearms are so gross” “I. Hate. My. Nose. Like. Usual.”)

Should I actually admit this and write it down? No!

But here’s why I am:

Seeing the worst in ourselves is normal.

But seeing the worst in the exorbitant HD-detail that today’s day and age invokes is not.

I genuinely hate my face for 80% of this … but its very movement is why a storyline might be able to be derived. A feeling. An instinct.

This dance was made to intentionally overly-weave sign language and slow movement into an all-levels combination that can be adapted and analyzed as each student saw fit. Its meaning is different depending on who’s dancing it. But what does it mean when we can’t see what means something to us anymore?

And we begin to only see a face without a metaphoric filter?

Are we forgetting human faces?

And… what happens when we do?

Bonus Hello Thoughts [as loosely Stream Of transcribed from stories and such, previously]

I’ve had a handful of friends on here say I would love Jones Road Beauty and to investigate and do a video etc… So lately I’ve been OBSESSING during hard times, and watching reviews of it extensively.

I think I’d love it too because of age bracket and preference for ease, but budget wise: will forever just be a late night sadness distraction.

HOWEVER…

I found a “dupe” like miracle balm type range at Revolution Beauty online for like $12.

So now I keep obsessing over their website because the prices are wildly affordable, but so many akin items.

Can’t try any time soon (very rough mountain of things going on right now) but wondering if anyone else has been nerding out over either?

I’d love opinions as pos-distraction!

…. I am still a die hard cold cream and drugstore person, and forever grateful for my few Danessa Myricks goodies or any gift cards from friends that have bought me literally months (not exaggerating 😂) of research and glee and then refills on prized possessions… So am still the most grateful.

And will definitely do an updated routine rotation soon, especially because I have so many favorites down to a science lately.

Still: I don’t know if anyone else has ever had a really “bad” makeup or skin season and they aren’t sure why?

I know it’s because bodies change - and I’m sure having such a cold house right now, and going through hormone issues and stress recently has not helped mine… but I had a total “system” for years, and then suddenly, most products and skincare was sitting funky?!

It’s taken me so much patience and literal months… but I think I’m starting to figure out what adjustments have been needed! (Maybe?) But that’s probably why the miracle balm and WTF foundation were intriguing me- my skin wants less than it used to, and it needs a ton more moisture.

Anyways, will report back on my latest routines.

And maybe one day: I’ll be showing you a self invented Revolution Beauty routine created to embody exactly that!

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