“It’s My One True Beauty!”

Not after two babies. Not after weeks in the ICU...

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“It’s my one true beauty!”

This is what I said the other day, and I was serious. I was pretending to be dramatic and an Amy March, but the truth is: my personality is as much Amy as Jo and that’s problematic.

I was talking about my hair, which is thinning.

My hair has never fallen out… like this.

Not after two babies. Not after weeks in the ICU. Not even when I feared for my daughters and I’s safety years ago (nothing compares to that, it should be said).

“It was the one thing I didn’t have to tiptoe around,” I complain, “It was my final frontier.”

Keep in mind: I’ve already taken some steps to help and it seems to be working. A friend sent me a serum: I’ve being using it until dry. And it’s not that important, right? I’ve faced 100,000 worse. “This is vain and banal and absorbed. This is me letting the little things hurt the camel, because this back has no room for straws.”

Maybe it’s the years and years of debrieding and deconstruction, making me hyper sensitive and self obsessed?

I think of friends who have CF and then ALSO got cancer and I scrap this excuse quickly. Onto the next. “It’s not about the hair” - which is holding on and half hyperbole- “or the timing or the why... it’s about the accumulation of insult to injury that’s made me lose sight of what matters and means.”