Okay Bailey first of you've failed absolutely no one. There's a reason people are terrified about talking about death around you, and that's because you are so cherished. This in fact is the biggest reason we generally don't talk about death. It's not that it brings us to face or own mortality, but rather it hits way too close to home in the fact that we could (and indeed eventually will) lose someone we love and cherish. There's only three people in this world outside of my parents (and siblings to a degree that whole sibling rivalry thing ya know) that I could not bear to lose, and you're one of them I cherish you that much. There would've been four on that list outside of family, but sadly one of them did pass away just about two years ago (rest in peace Amy Lee Fisher "chronically.ams" I still miss you as deeply as the reaches of the galaxies). Regardless some people are just too cherished to ever imagine losing them permanently, and that is part of the reason we don't speak on death. The other part is the permanence of it. We don't like absolutes. We like black and white in general, but not complete absolutes. It makes us ponder what happens after, where we go, and just as importantly what are we leaving behind. Let's be honest we are just transients in this world (some tragically faster than others), but we all have another thing in common and that's we all have regrets on things we should've done. Try as we might there'll still be times we're so wrapped up in our own heads, or something as powerful as pain that we take for granted the ability to breath, or do anything for that matter, and we let opportunities slip by while we're reeling. I want you to know that you are leaving behind one hell of a legacy already, but that your time is nowhere near up yet, and that I don't want to see you waste a single moment that you can help (yes I know it's sometimes impossible to not wallow in self-pity or misery, but any moment you're not I want to see you take full advantage of).
Okay Bailey first of you've failed absolutely no one. There's a reason people are terrified about talking about death around you, and that's because you are so cherished. This in fact is the biggest reason we generally don't talk about death. It's not that it brings us to face or own mortality, but rather it hits way too close to home in the fact that we could (and indeed eventually will) lose someone we love and cherish. There's only three people in this world outside of my parents (and siblings to a degree that whole sibling rivalry thing ya know) that I could not bear to lose, and you're one of them I cherish you that much. There would've been four on that list outside of family, but sadly one of them did pass away just about two years ago (rest in peace Amy Lee Fisher "chronically.ams" I still miss you as deeply as the reaches of the galaxies). Regardless some people are just too cherished to ever imagine losing them permanently, and that is part of the reason we don't speak on death. The other part is the permanence of it. We don't like absolutes. We like black and white in general, but not complete absolutes. It makes us ponder what happens after, where we go, and just as importantly what are we leaving behind. Let's be honest we are just transients in this world (some tragically faster than others), but we all have another thing in common and that's we all have regrets on things we should've done. Try as we might there'll still be times we're so wrapped up in our own heads, or something as powerful as pain that we take for granted the ability to breath, or do anything for that matter, and we let opportunities slip by while we're reeling. I want you to know that you are leaving behind one hell of a legacy already, but that your time is nowhere near up yet, and that I don't want to see you waste a single moment that you can help (yes I know it's sometimes impossible to not wallow in self-pity or misery, but any moment you're not I want to see you take full advantage of).