These writings about our names have become the catalyst I didn’t know I needed to reach an important revelation. All my life I’ve never liked my name, written off with “it’s an old lady name”. In truth it’s much deeper than that. From the ages of 6-17, I lived through being the stepdaughter to a very wicked stepmother. There was physical abuse (nothing like going to junior high with a fat lip) but the emotional abuse was far worse. My name was almost always associated with cruelty. “HELEN you’re so stupid! You’ll never amount to anything! You’re a liar! Why can’t you be more like your stepsister?! When you turn 18 and leave I can’t wait to throw a party and invite all my friends!”. At 17 when I left home, my farewell note read “Now you can throw your party”. Of course I’ve hated my name. I just had never made this deeper connection. More healing is definitely in order (tack it onto the many years in past lives devoted to therapy). The awareness to heal this name hatred I owe to you. Yes, it’s going to take a lot of work. I’m grateful for this onion peel. Thank you for being my emotional teleprompter ❤️🩹
That stepmother is evil. I understand your hatred of your name due to it being used to define you by an evil person.
But, now think of the meaning, and encompass that for the child who suffered emotional abuse (from experience, I'd rather have the crap beat out of me than the verbal/emotional abuse the woman who gave birth to me and her husband dished out) and bring her into the Light and show her that she is safe and is the Light.
Helen, You are very WELCOME! It's hard to heal the adult when the child is still so hurt. I'm getting better at recognizing when I'm reacting to something and when the little girl is.
I hope you are doing well and that what I wrote is helping you!
These writings about our names have become the catalyst I didn’t know I needed to reach an important revelation. All my life I’ve never liked my name, written off with “it’s an old lady name”. In truth it’s much deeper than that. From the ages of 6-17, I lived through being the stepdaughter to a very wicked stepmother. There was physical abuse (nothing like going to junior high with a fat lip) but the emotional abuse was far worse. My name was almost always associated with cruelty. “HELEN you’re so stupid! You’ll never amount to anything! You’re a liar! Why can’t you be more like your stepsister?! When you turn 18 and leave I can’t wait to throw a party and invite all my friends!”. At 17 when I left home, my farewell note read “Now you can throw your party”. Of course I’ve hated my name. I just had never made this deeper connection. More healing is definitely in order (tack it onto the many years in past lives devoted to therapy). The awareness to heal this name hatred I owe to you. Yes, it’s going to take a lot of work. I’m grateful for this onion peel. Thank you for being my emotional teleprompter ❤️🩹
Helen means LIGHT. Torch or Light.
Helen, the Shining Light.
That stepmother is evil. I understand your hatred of your name due to it being used to define you by an evil person.
But, now think of the meaning, and encompass that for the child who suffered emotional abuse (from experience, I'd rather have the crap beat out of me than the verbal/emotional abuse the woman who gave birth to me and her husband dished out) and bring her into the Light and show her that she is safe and is the Light.
It's hard, but you can do it!! 💚
Carol, THANK YOU so much for this. The little 6 yr old me needed that. So sorry you went thru that hell too. ❤️🩹
Helen, You are very WELCOME! It's hard to heal the adult when the child is still so hurt. I'm getting better at recognizing when I'm reacting to something and when the little girl is.
I hope you are doing well and that what I wrote is helping you!
Thank you!
I'm always here if you need to talk.
Sending you love and peace, Carol
Grief happens so much with chronic illnesses😔
Love u Baileybear… I watched the vid but can’t think of any cool facts rite now 🧐
Bailey, Bailey, Bailey, Bailey, Bailey.....Bailey! Best name!!! 🥰