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We Probably Know There's Something Wrong

I Intentionally Raised My Girls Without Child Support

I Watched the Film “Judy” Recently

Hear Me Out: We Need Tragic People…

I Call This The Paris Hilton Blur Spot

Would You Do It?

To This Day, If I Get a Bad Scan...

Hot Take: Unconditional love IS conditional

I Have Hurt and Rejected My Partner

I’ll Be Honest: I Was Super Scared

I’m at the OB Where I Had My Daughters…

I Don’t Even Have Time For a Sense of Dread

I Stretch… and It Pops a Bone or Two

Love is Absolutely Nothing Like What We Are Told

You Can Be Flawed and Broken and Wounded and Lost

I Don’t Want to Talk About Faith Here

(Permission To Exist Sometimes?)

I Have Always Wanted to Adopt a Child

“What Does a Life Worth Living Look Like For You?”

Let’s Normalize ASL and Deafness in Beauty

It Is Way Too Much of My Face

Let's Sh*T On Instagram While On Substack

"Now I Know How You Feel."

“That’s Why I Never Take My Phone in the Bathroom”

"You Shouldn't Have to Pretend It Doesn't Hurt."

"Death of Child" Was There...

“BUT…I Am Drowning"

Are You Still Paying Attention?

“Try Writing a Letter to the Person That You Lost”

“The Dark Feelings Are Not You..."

None of Us Want Our Bruises to Show

So Anyways… I’m Weeping in the Shower.

“I Have Never Treated a CF Patient Before Who Didn’t Have Anxiety.”

Hi. I'm Back.

And I’m Sorry.

I Had Two Surgeries and Covid and I'm Lonely

I Was Wrong.

In the Last Year, I’ve Had 6 Surgeries and 9 Hospital Stays

Today I Have Exceeded the Age of My Life Expectancy

I Had a New Surgery (Two Weeks After the Last)

"There was no such thing as safe anymore"

“Wake up!” I was still shouting

"I heard it without realizing I was hearing it"

“The Suicide Supremacists are everything that’s wrong with this planet”

“Can you imagine intentionally dying by touch?”

“Get her in the car!” I screamed

"I thought maybe they’d just go deaf"

"There is no evidence that wearing gloves makes any difference"

"My brother died not long after this..."

"Then we are all going to die"

It's Time For The Big Weird Surprise I've Been Taunting!

Living Honestly as a Sick Person IS Too Much

“What If I Collect the Results of Myself Using a Daily Cold Cream?"

“I Want You to Push This," My Doctor Said

I Was Performing With the Circus Around a Month Later

Here Is How We Should Change The 'Pain Number System' in Healthcare

I Read About the 7 Essence Technique

“Is It Better to Burn Out Fast Than to Fade Away?”

I Wish I Had More Texts From My Friends I’ve Lost

I Actually Think I Wouldn’t Be as Nice to Other Sick People

“I Thought I Was Going to Have to do CPR”

“I Hope They’re Managing Your Pain.”

I Was Wrong.

Think About It: Why Wouldn’t That Be the Best Cream For Taking Down Inflammation?

“Things Exploding Inside of Me”

“You Were Right,” the Doctor Said

I Went to the ER a Couple of Weeks Ago

"He Said Come to the ER.”

I Would Eat Every Last Evil Word if I Could, Like The OA

They Operated on Two Different Discs in My Neck

We F*ck Up Our Skin.

Living With Degenerative Spine-Type of Disease Isn’t Something I Ever Expected to Happen

I Found Out I Was Having 2 Surgeries In the Span of 2 Days

I Had Secret Surgery This Week

I’ll Never Be Kate Beckinsale Who Never Raises Her Eyebrows

...For Every Athlete With One Surgery As The Climactic Moment

I’m Intentionally Failing Right Now

If You've Ever Had a Sister.... Then You Need to Read This Today

The Thing About Marriage Is That... It’s Not Actually Sustainable

I Would Have Never Met the Person I Loved in Person Before He Died

"I Think I Know You," She Said...

I Started Talking About Lung Transplants Instead

How Do You Protect Yourself From Encountering Another Person With CF

Be Halsey or Be Lena Dunham...

You Recall a Doctor Asking You to Sign a Waiver for Medicine That Could Make Your Child Deaf

I’m Not One for Making Posts Like This...

I am Used to Barbaric Looking Vast Incisions

We Consider Disability “Beautiful” Briefly and Only When It Trends

Do You Know What the World Says to Sick People When We Are Sick?

“Please Be My Leg,” I Said to Him

“I Have to Tell You Something I Don’t Want to Tell You…"

‘Isn’t Staying Alive the Most Important Thing?’

I Have a Huge Announcement to Make

Why Am I Ashamed of That?

My Sickness Can't Be Someone's Clickbait

The World is Quick to Point the Finger at Women and Scream: “Vapid!”

At Night, I Apply a Mask of Noxzema to Damp Skin

Health is Wealth Unless You’re Wealthy (Then You Might Be Cured)

I Put Lipstick On My Forehead

I Burst Into Tears

I Was Supposed to Have a Secret Surgery This Week

Survive, Report, Repeat. Survive, Report,Repeat.

I Obsess Over the Textures of Beauty Brands I Haven’t Tried and Can’t Afford

A Defibrillator Going Off is the Scariest Feeling That You Can Never Expect

“This Just Isn’t Sustainable For You”

Invite the Sick Person to Your Party, Even If You Think They Might Not Show Up

I Am a Very Very Very Very Bad “Follow”

I Don’t Normally Cry in Public Unless...

This Is What One Body Went Through In Just 8 Years of Running My Company And Trying To Stay Alive On Planet Earth [Please Read And Let It Matter]

I Once Had a Surgery to Repair a Tear That Basically Was...

“It’s My One True Beauty!”

Where Do I Start?

But You Can’t Hide a Body That’s Not Always Good at Being a Body

I Have This Sick Fantasy Where...

“What Helps the Pain?” It Asks

If I Can Never Lift My Leg Higher Than My Hip… Am I No Longer a Dancer?

My Sadness Had Never Even Met Sadness Before

"I Use It Religiously and Have Been For Over 40 Years."

Maybe You Too Recently Needed a Product Breakup

I Worry About Being Sedated Around Someone Who Isn’t Sworn to Love

A Day After Coming Home From Your Second Hospital Stay In a Month

Meet A Death Doula: "The 10 Question Toolbox"

I See Friends Who Commit Their Lives to Staying Alive

I Cloak Myself in Radiation and Watch Her Give

It’s 1 Million Times Scarier to Walk Right Into the Spaces Where You’ve Failed...

There Is a Reason That People With CF Used to Move Near the Beach

I’m In the Hospital Again

Surgeries Impact Who I am Outwardly a Lot

The Right-Wrong Chauvinistic Doctor Can Make Me Disbelieve Everything I Know to be True About My Own Body

I Feel Less Deaf When I’m Dancing…. Not More So

“I’m Not an Inspiration! I Work Too Hard to Even Be Called Sick! I Am So Productive!"

Even Though I’m Missing So Many Organs, I Somehow Had the Miracle of Making Two Humans

I Decided to Show the End and Not Be a Liar For Once

I Had a Leak In My Spine

I Wish There Were More Education On How to Help Deaf Patients Feel Safe

I Sneeze. I Shave My Leg. I Sit Weird.

"Why Did I Tell Her the Truth?

An Unfair Entry into Adolescence; A Childhood of Trauma

I Have Looked at Mobility (And Help) Through That Lens For Far Too Long

Where She Could Tell I Was Not Myself.

Too Young, Too Dumb, Too Too.

See My Suffering? Please Make It Matter.

“Don’t Apologize When Asking For Your Meds.”

I Wish We Replaced the Word “Weight” With “Strength” When Sharing Online

I’ve Been Suffering and Starving It Out Alone at Home For 7 Years

I Was Direct Admitted to the CF Floor

Can You Be “Beautiful” and Have Scars All Over Your Body?

“I’ll Moisturize My Face About Six Times a Day"

Shorter. Less Disgusting. But Truths Can Be Disgusting

We Often Think That Others Will Fatigue of Our Grief

We Don’t See This Online or In Movies or In Novels

Most Who Argue Otherwise Don’t Know What a SNAP Card Looks Like

“How Many Products Does This Person Have?”

Hell, We Can Prolapse Entire Damn Organs From Coughing…

Deaf Girl's Soundtrack To Life: Ben Folds, yMusic, Tallest Man on Earth, Marcus Mumford, Punch Brothers

"Tiny Triumvirate Squares, Synced in Sepia"

“You’re Both in a Storm" (I Am Your Mother)

Where Was the Beauty Campaign With a Ballerina With Feeding Tubes

“Lack of Sleep Makes 40-Something Year Old Men Die Faster”

The Diminutive Dots of Laparoscopic Have Always Felt Like Nothing to Me

Alone In Her Absence After She Passed

“Oh Yeah. Okay. Cool. Good Experiment” (Beauty)

Hi. It's Nice To Meet You!

Next Goal Wins, All of Us Strangers, and Past Lives (The Shame-Free Cinema Club)

“I’ll Interpret For You,” My Youngest Said

“Sitting is Worse Than Dancing,” I Said

The Horror Movie of Our Morning Was Hard To Shake The Rest of the Day

WHY?

It’s Leaky Feeding Tubes And Tendus

“Do You Think He’s Dying?”

Deaf Girl's Soundtrack To Life: Sigur Ros, Dead Man's Bones, Paul Simon, Frightened Rabbit

If You’re a Sick Person Who Is Scared to Post...

...Treated As If PAIN Isn’t Pain In Every Single Body

"Dance Is Hours of Practicing the Boring Things Before You Can Do the Cool Things" (Dance In The Life)

I Get Very Quiet When I Am In Pain

The Next Generation Who Needs to See Disability as Dimensional

Here Is Where the Hole Begins

“Should I Just Retire?!” I Said to My Best Friend

I Wish Every Patient in the World Could Hear These Words

I Haven’t Slept in Almost Two Decades

“You’re Always Blue,” Tiny Dancer Said.

You Can’t Be “Well” at Being Unwell

"Communication is 55% Nonverbal, 38% Vocal, and 7% Words Only"

A Monster of Self-Centeredness Whose Artistic Pretensions Now Seem Grotesque

“It’s Going to Take a Lot More Than You Think to Sedate Me”

I Wish I Had Gone to the Hospital the Second This All Started

I Got Pancreatitis For Our Opening Weekend of Shows

One Year From Now, We Will Throw an Adoption Party

Bodies Are a Privilege (Even When Hit By Buses)

“The Difference In People’s Pain Tolerance Is Wild,” She Said

Deafness Is Not the Hard Part

I Believe in Cold Creams

Not Things Like: “Airways Become Colonized With Bacteria”

“Do You Need Anything?” My Eldest Daughter Asks

That’s Just the Beginning of the Beginning.